As I get older though, I find that my thoughts on any number of things continue to change and evolve. That where once I was convinced of my rightness, a huge grey area has crept in. I listen to the arguments for and against, and find myself wavering from my original position.
Possibly this makes me a little spineless. A bit wishy washy.
But I find that in fact I am happy to be a bit spineless.
I've watched people so deeply entrenched in their own dogma and militant standpoints that they alienate people they once purported to care for. They use their beliefs like a pointy stick with which to poke and prod others until they capitulate, either out of genuine agreement or just feeling so beaten down that they don't want to engage any further.
Deep seated belief is a fine thing, and holding firm to things that you truly believe in is admirable. But surely not at the expense of the self esteem of others? At what cost the need to be 'right' all the time?
This Thursday I am feeling thankful for my fence sitting ways. The past year with my Little Mate has opened my eyes to an awful lot of new realities, and I think opened my heart in a way it has not been before. I am happy to be wishy washy, if it means I am capable of suspending judgement and truly seeing what has always been there. I am thankful for the ability to understand that relationships mean a lot more to me than being 'right'. Especially when so often, there is no right... just different.
Fellow Thankful Thursday crew I need to apologise for my lack of commenting the past few weeks. My Little Mate has been having a very challenging time of late and where I once could comment everywhere I'm currently lucky to get around to read you all.
I am SO PROUD of our little community here, and how it has grown. I love that every week we put our gratitude out there on the internet and into the world. It is a powerful thing.
But I need to admit here that I may not make it around to comment again today, although of course I will be reading. And I'd like to ask for volunteers who might like to help pop around and show as many people some comment love as you can, while I wait for things to settle down a little more in my own life.
It is Thursday, and I am so thankful for your understanding <3